The Spoon Theory Game!
Your eyes snap open and notice that behind the curtains, it's still dark outside. After reaching for your phone, you realize it's 3am. Your partner is snoring, your dog is snoring, but you are wide awake.
How are you feeling?
[[Everything fucking hurts.]]HP: 15 SPOONS.
When you go to bed with pain, you always have a small portion of hope that you won't wake up in pain. You do, though. That's what chronic pain is... just always...there...hovering...
Fatigue: 5/10
Pain: 5/10
Time: 3am
[[Get out of bed and start your day.]]HP: 15 SPOONS
Fatigue: 5/10
Pain: 5/10
Time: 3am
[[Cook breakfast. (3 SPOONS)]]
[[Grab a physician prescribed meal replacement. (0 SPOONS)]]HP: 12 SPOONS
Fatigue: 5/10
Pain: 5/10
Time: 4am
Moving around and cooking breakfast helped wake you up a bit more and lessen your widespread morning stiffness. At the same time, you realize that maybe a meal replacement could have saved you some valuable spoons...
[[Take a shower. (2 SPOONS)]]HP: 10 SPOONS
Fatigue: 5/10
Pain: 5/10
Time: 5am
Standing in the shower can take energy you could use for other things, but you don’t have a choice in this task if you want to make an acceptable impression with your peers and classmates.
[[Feed your dog and take him outside. (3 SPOONS)]]HP: 15 SPOONS
Fatigue: 5/10
Pain: 5/10
Time: 3am
Your doctors have recommened a mostly liquid diet due to a condition called Gastroparesis... basically, your stomach is mostly paralyzed. This condition doesn't allow solid food to digest properly, and a solid meal can stay in your stomach for 10+ hours before even beginning to digest... yikes.
Meal replacements allow you to get balanced wholesome nutrition in the quickest and safest way for your body, and they save you spoons!
[[Take a shower. (2 SPOONS).]] HP: 13 SPOONS
Fatigue: 5/10
Pain: 5/10
Time: 5am
Standing in the shower can take energy you could use for other things, but you don’t have a choice in this task if you want to make an acceptable impression with your peers and classmates.
[[Feed your dog and take him outside. (3 SPOONS).]]HP: 07 SPOONS
Fatigue: 5/10
Pain: 7/10
Time: 5am
Bending over to feed your dog, the pain in your head intensifies greatly.
[[Take pain medication.]] This may help the pain, or it may not. It will make you a little sleepy, and you won't be able to focus very well.HP: 10 SPOONS
Fatigue: 5/10
Pain: 5/10
Time: 5am
Bending over to feed your dog, the pain in your head intensifies greatly.
[[Take pain medication...]] This may help the pain, or it may not. It will make you a little sleepy, and you won't be able to focus very well.
[[Continue without medication]]HP: 07 SPOONS
Fatigue: 7/10
Pain: 7/10
Time: 10am
After taking some pain medication, you lay down and fall back asleep for a few hours. You awaken at 10:30 and your pain is the same. Your body feels very heavy, and slow. Your thoughts are disorganized and cloudy. You have class at 12:30pm.
[[Rest in the dark until you HAVE to leave for class.]]
[[Decide that a 7/10 pain is worthy enough of missing class.]]HP: 07 SPOONS
Fatigue: 7/10
Pain: 7/10
Time: 12pm
You feel very grateful that your drive to school is only 15 minutes, and that you packed your backpack the night before. You could kiss yourself for finishing your homework in advance, knowing this pain might happen.
[[Go to class. (4 SPOONS)]]
HP: 07 SPOONS
Fatigue: 6/10
Pain: 8/10
Time: 3pm
Your pain and other symptoms were serious enough that you decided to rest instead of going to class. You awaken at 3pm... in worse pain. Your partner brings you some more pain medication and food and water.
[[Spend the rest of the afternoon in bed. ((3 SPOONS))]]
[[Get up and do some easy chores around the house. ((3 SPOONS))]]HP: 03 SPOONS
Fatigue: 8/10
Pain: 7/10
Time: 4pm
That critique was EXHAUSTING. You had to sit multiple times due to pain and fatigue, and you worried the whole time that your peers and teachers were judging you for resting.
[[Drive home. (2 SPOONS).]]HP: 01 SPOONS
Fatigue: 8/10
Pain: 8/10
Time: 5pm
After getting settled back in at home, you realize your pain is worse than you thought. You're very grateful your partner is there to help with the dog, because any movement is making the pain worse.
[[Take more medication and lay down.]]HP: 01 SPOONS
Fatigue: 8/10
Pain: 8/10
Time: 8pm
You wake up and realize your pain is not improving and at this point pain medication will not improve your situation. Sometimes napping can help you gain a few spoons, but in this instance it feels like you didn't even sleep. You have homework but there's no way you can focus due to the pain.
[[Start bedtime routine. (3 SPOONS).]]HP: 2 KNIVES
Fatigue: 8/10
Pain: 8/10
Time: 10pm
You have overspent your SPOONS for the day. Your bedtime routine is something you are unwilling to mess with, because sleep hygeine is something you take very seriously after 27 years of living with insomnia. Tomorrow, try to budget for 3 SPOONS before bed...
Your thoughts become very dark and [[depressing...]]What's the point in life, if every single day you are in serious amounts of [[pain]]?HP: 2 KNIVES
Fatigue: 8/10
Pain: 8/10
Time: 11pm
You fall asleep in pain.
All you think about are [[KNIVES...]] HP: 04 SPOONS
Fatigue: 8/10
Pain: 8/10
Time: 4pm
You spend the rest of the afternoon in bed, listening to an audiobook and relaxing, trying to dissociate from the pain.
[[Sleep.]] HP: 04 SPOONS
Fatigue: 8/10
Pain: 8/10
Time: 4pm
What were you thinking?
Trying to move around was a bad idea.
[[Go back to bed to rest.]]HP: 01 SPOONS
Fatigue: 8/10
Pain: 8/10
Time: 4pm
After laying back down, you realize moving around and trying to do small chores cost you more SPOONS than you thought it would...
[[Sleep.]]CONGRATULATIONS! You have earned 3 SPOONS from RESTING.
HP: 04 SPOONS
Fatigue: 6/10
Pain: 6/10
Time: 7pm
Resting in the dark helped you gain enough energy to try to enjoy some relaxation time with your partner before bed.
[[Watch a movie with your parnter. (1 SPOON)]]HP: 03 SPOONS
Fatigue: 6/10
Pain: 5/10
Time: 10pm
Watching a movie with your partner helped you relax and get out of a negative headspace for a couple hours.
[[Go straight to bed.]]
[[Start bedtime routine (3 SPOONS).]]HP: 00 SPOONS
Fatigue: 6/10
Pain: 5/10
Time: 10pm
Your bedtime routine is something you are unwilling to mess with, because sleep hygeine is something you take very seriously after 27 years of living with insomnia. You always try to have at least 3 SPOONS at the end of the day to make sure you can get the best nights rest possible.
[[You spent your SPOONS well...]]Fatigue: 6/10
Pain: 6/10
You fall asleep in pain.
THE END.
Start [[The Spoon Theory Game...]] again!HP: 10 SPOONS
Fatigue: 7/10
Pain: 7/10
Time: 5am
After taking some pain medication, you lay down and fall back asleep for a few hours. You awaken at 10:30 and your pain is the same. Your body feels very heavy, and slow. Your thoughts are disorganized and cloudy. You have class at 12:30pm.
[[Rest in the dark until you HAVE to leave for class...]]
[[Decide that a 7/10 pain is worthy enough of missing class...]]HP: 10 SPOONS
Fatigue: 7/10
Pain: 7/10
Time: 12pm
You feel very grateful that your drive to school is only 15 minutes, and that you packed your backpack the night before. You could kiss yourself for finishing your homework in advance, knowing this pain might happen.
[[Go to class... (4 SPOONS)]]
HP: 10 SPOONS
Fatigue: 6/10
Pain: 8/10
Time: 3pm
Your pain and other symptoms were serious enough that you decided to rest instead of going to class. You awaken at 3pm... in worse pain. Your partner brings you some more pain medication and food and water.
[[Spend the rest of the afternoon in bed... ((3 SPOONS))]]
[[Get up and do some easy chores around the house... ((3 SPOONS))]]HP: 06 SPOONS
Fatigue: 7/10
Pain: 7/10
Time: 4pm
That critique was EXHAUSTING. You had to sit multiple times due to pain and fatigue, and you worried the whole time that your peers and teachers were judging you for resting.
[[Drive home... (2 SPOONS).]]HP: 04 SPOONS
Fatigue: 8/10
Pain: 8/10
Time: 5pm
After getting settled back in at home, you realize your pain is worse than you thought. You're very grateful your partner is there to help with the dog, because any movement is making the pain worse.
[[Take more medication and lay down...]]HP: 04 SPOONS
Fatigue: 8/10
Pain: 8/10
Time: 8pm
You wake up and realize your pain is not improving and at this point pain medication will not improve your situation. Sometimes napping can help you gain a few spoons, but in this instance it feels like you didn't even sleep. You have homework but there's no way you can focus due to the pain.
[[Start bedtime routine... (3 SPOONS)]]HP: 01 SPOONS
Fatigue: 8/10
Pain: 8/10
Time: 8pm
Your bedtime routine is something you are unwilling to mess with, because sleep hygeine is something you take very seriously after 27 years of living with insomnia. You always try to have at least 3 SPOONS at the end of the day to make sure you can get the best nights rest possible.
[[You spent your SPOONS well...]]HP: 07 SPOONS
Fatigue: 8/10
Pain: 8/10
Time: 4pm
You spend the rest of the afternoon in bed, listening to an audiobook and relaxing, trying to dissociate from the pain.
[[Sleep...]] YOU HAVE LOST 3 SPOONS DUE TO POOR CHOICES.
HP: 4 SPOONS
Fatigue: 6/10
Pain: 8/10
Time: 3pm
What were you fucking thinking?
Pain is flaring, throbbing, stabbing you...
Why are you moving?
[[Go back to bed.]]CONGRATULATIONS! You have earned 3 SPOONS from RESTING.
HP: 10 SPOONS
Fatigue: 4/10
Pain: 4/10
Time: 7pm
Resting in the dark helped you gain enough energy to try to be a bit more productive the rest of the night.
[[Watch a movie with your parnter... (1 SPOON)]]
[[Tidy up the kitchen... (2 spoons)]]YOU HAVE LOST 3 SPOONS DUE TO POOR CHOICES.
HP: 06 SPOONS
Fatigue: 6/10
Pain: 4/10
Time: 9pm
Watching a movie with your partner helped you relax and get out of a negative headspace for a couple hours. However, now that your body has finally relaxed, you really, really don't have the physical energy to do much else tonight...
[[Start bedtime routine... (3 SPOONS).]]HP: 08 SPOONS
Fatigue: 4/10
Pain: 4/10
Time: 7pm
Moving around really helped your pain, and your partner has helped tidy up the house while you were napping.
[[Clean the bathroom... (3 SPOONS)]]
[[Play with your dog... (3 SPOONS)]]YOU HAVE LOST AN EXTRA SPOON DUE TO POOR CHOICES.
HP: 04 SPOONS
Fatigue: 6/10
Pain: 6/10
Time: 9pm
Turns out your pain wasn't as mananged as you thought... all that bending and the smell of the cleaning supplies brought your pain right back to where it started.
[[Play with your dog.... (3 SPOONS)]]
[[Watch a movie with your partner (1 SPOON)]]CONGRATULATIONS! You have gained 1 SPOON due to increased happiness.
HP: 06 SPOONS
Fatigue: 3/10
Pain: 3/10
Time: 8pm
You are so excited that you feel well enough to get some playtime with your dog. Your pain is managable right now so you can bend and move with moderate effort. You dog jumps on you and kisses you and is so happy to have playtime. You feel more energized.
[[Do some homework... (3 SPOONS)]]
[[Clean the bathroom.... (3 SPOONS)]]HP: 03 SPOONS
Fatigue: 3/10
Pain: 3/10
Time: 8pm
You are able to concentrate and focus, so you decide now is the time to get ahead on some homework. Even if it's not due soon, you always try to get things done way in advance in case of a pain flare.
You feel pride in this choice.
[[Start bedtime routine (3 SPOONS).]]YOU HAVE LOST AN EXTRA SPOON DUE TO POOR CHOICES.
Also, you're blind in your right eye temporarily...
HP: 04 SPOONS
Fatigue: 6/10
Pain: 6/10
Time: 9pm
Turns out your pain wasn't as mananged as you thought... all that bending and the smell of the cleaning supplies brought your pain right back to where it started. Also, you have lost vision in your right eye temporarily.
[[Start bedtime routine (3 SPOONS).]]
[[Watch a movie with your partner (1 SPOON)]]HP: 01 SPOONS
Fatigue: 7/10
Pain: 6/10
Time: 10pm
You realize that earlier, when you had more spoons, you should have played with your dog. You were so excited, but now it feels like a chore...
Your dog jumps on you and kisses you and is so happy to have playtime. You feel more drained.
[[Go straight to bed. (0 SPOONS).]]
[[Start bedtime routine. (3 SPOONS).]]HP: 03 SPOONS
Fatigue: 6/10
Pain: 6/10
Time: 10pm
You and your partner start a movie but about 20 minutes in, [[you fall asleep...]]HP: 01 SPOONS
Fatigue: 6/10
Pain: 6/10
Time: 1am
You missed your bedtime routine.
Your bedtime routine is something you are unwilling to mess with, because sleep hygeine is something you take very seriously after 27 years of living with insomnia.
As a result, you sleep is interrupted, which flares your pain and fatigue tomorrow.
However, [[You spent your SPOONS well...]] HP: 01 SPOONS
Fatigue:7/10
Pain: 6/10
Time: 1am
You missed your bedtime routine.
Your bedtime routine is something you are unwilling to mess with, because sleep hygeine is something you take very seriously after 27 years of living with insomnia.
As a result, you sleep is interrupted, which flares your pain and fatigue tomorrow.
EVERY time you wake up (about every 30 minutes) you spent some time thinking about [[KNIVES...]]HP: 01 SPOONS
Fatigue:7/10
Pain: 6/10
Time: 1am
You missed your bedtime routine.
Your bedtime routine is something you are unwilling to mess with, because sleep hygeine is something you take very seriously after 27 years of living with insomnia.
As a result, you sleep is interrupted, which flares your pain and fatigue tomorrow.
However, [[You spent your SPOONS well...]] HP: 10 SPOONS
Fatigue: 5/10
Pain: 5/10
Time: 5am
You don't take any narcotics for pain, but your insurance still limits your pain medication to 12 pills per month. Your doctor allows you to take up to 2 pills per flare, up to 4 pills per week.
Your insurance is a fuckhead :)
[[Push through the pain, continue with your day. (?? SPOONS)]]
[[See what is able to help in your Pain Tool Kit. (3 SPOONS)]]HP: 10 SPOONS
Fatigue: 5/10
Pain: 5/10
Time: 7am
You decided to "just deal with it" and get on with your day.
[[Do some homework. (3 SPOONS)]]CONGRATULATIONS! YOU HAVE GAINED 3 SPOONS FOR SELF CARE!
HP: 13 SPOONS
Fatigue: 3/10
Pain: 3/10
Time: 9am
You used some topical and herbal treatments, massage and hot/cold therapy and were able to fall back asleep for a few hours. You wake up in less pain and are feeling more energized.
[[Do a little homework. (3 SPOONS)]]
[[Play with your dog for a bit. (3 SPOONS)]]HP: 07 SPOONS
Fatigue: 5/10
Pain: 7/10
Time: 10am
It's now a few hours later, and you have been trying to do some homework. Staring at the computer screen without a break really wasn't a good idea...
You notice a tingling sensation in your upper right shoulder...
[[Ignore it.]]
[[Investigate...]]HP: 07 SPOONS
Fatigue: 5/10
Pain: 7/10
Time: 12pm
You decided to ignore the tingling sensation in your shoulder. You finish up your homework and pack your bag for class.
[[Drive to school... (1 SPOON)]]HP: 07 SPOONS
Fatigue: 5/10
Pain: 7/10
Time: 12pm
After looking at your symptom tracker, you realize that this is the begining of Migraine.
[[Take some pain medication...]] This may help the pain, or it may not. It will make you a little sleepy, and you won't be able to focus very well.HP: 06 SPOONS
Fatigue: 5/10
Pain: 7/10
Time: 12pm
On your drive to school... you lose most of your vision in your right eye.
But you somehow arrive safely, and you don't really remember the rest of the drive...
[[Investigate your symptoms...]]HP: 06 SPOONS
Fatigue: 5/10
Pain: 7/10
Time: 12pm
After looking at your symptom tracker, you realize that this is the begining of Migraine.
[[Take some pain medication.]] This may help the pain, or it may not. It will make you a little sleepy, and you won't be able to focus very well.HP: 06 SPOONS
Fatigue: 7/10
Pain: 4/10
Time: 3pm
Your pain medication worked!
It's very important to take your pain medication at the first sign of a Migraine, not just when you notice the pain starting.
Class went easier than expected, although your retention of the information was a bit iffy.
You are so, so tired...
[[Drive home. (1 SPOON)]]HP: 05 SPOONS
Fatigue: 7/10
Pain: 4/10
Time: 4pm
You get home safely and realize you have enough spoons to spend for the rest of the night if you take it easy...
[[Take it easy. (3 SPOONS)]]
[[Keep pushing through. (5??? SPOONS)]]HP: 06 SPOONS
Fatigue: 7/10
Pain: 4/10
Time: 3pm
Your pain medication worked!
It's very important to take your pain medication at the first sign of a Migraine, not just when you notice the pain starting.
You are so, so tired...
[[Go to school (3 SPOONS)]]HP: 03 SPOONS
Fatigue: 8/10
Pain: 4/10
Time: 3pm
You were able to actively participate in class, especially because your pain medication has caffeine in it... Being around other people helped, as well...
But now class is over...
[[And you are so very, very tired...]]It takes moderate effort to hold yourself upright.
When you [[drive home (3 spoons)]], it drains you more than usual because your arms feel full of cement... holding the steering wheel seems nearly impossible.WARNING!!!
HP: 00 SPOONS
Fatigue: 8/10
Pain: 4/10
Time: 4pm
You made it home safely.
If you do not rest now, you will have NO SPOONS, ONLY KNIVES.
[[Rest. (+3 SPOONS)]]
[[Push through (?? KNIVES)]]CONGRATULATIONS! You have earned 3 SPOONS from RESTING.
HP: 03 SPOONS
Fatigue: 6/10
Pain: 6/10
Time: 7pm
Resting in the dark helped you regain some energy.
[[Watch a movie with your parnter (1 SPOON)]]
[[Start bedtime routine (3 SPOONS).]]WARNING!!!!!!
HP: 3 KNIVES
Fatigue: 8/10
Pain: 4/10
Time: 4pm
You decide to push through and [[see what happens.]]HP: 02 SPOONS
Fatigue: 6/10
Pain: 6/10
Time: 9pm
Watching a movie with your partner helped you relax and get out of a negative headspace for a couple hours.
[[Start bedtime routine. (3 SPOONS).]]HP: 03 SPOONS
Fatigue: 6/10
Pain: 5/10
Time: 10pm
Your bedtime routine is something you are unwilling to mess with, because sleep hygeine is something you take very seriously after 27 years of living with insomnia. You always try to have at least 3 SPOONS at the end of the day to make sure you can get the best nights rest possible.
[[You spent your SPOONS well...]]WARNING!!!!!!
HP: 5 KNIVES
Fatigue: 8/10
Pain: 8/10
Time: 7pm
What happens is your pain escalates rapidly.
Your cognitive function descreases drastically.
You have a few absence seizures due to exhaustion and high pain levels.
[[You have short term memory loss.]]KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. KNIVES. [[KNIVES.]]You are bitter.
You are angry.
You are frustrated.
You are confused.
You accidentally take more medication than you meant to because you forgot you already took it.
You become mean.
You snap at your loved ones.
All you can think about are... [[KNIVES.]]
THE END.
Start [[The Spoon Theory Game...]] again!HP: 4 SPOONS
Fatigue: 6/10
Pain: 8/10
Time: 3pm
You spend the rest of the afternoon in bed, listening to an audiobook and relaxing, trying to dissociate from the pain.
[[Try to sleep...]] HP: 4 SPOONS
Fatigue: 6/10
Pain: 8/10
Time: 5pm
After tossing and turning in bed for a few hours, you realize you are not going to fall asleep.
Your mind is racing.
You can't stop [[criticizing]] yourself...For not going to class.
For not resting while not going to class.
For not doing homework at home.
For not being a normal human
For not being social enough.
For not being tough enough.
For being weak.
For being pathetic.
For wasting your day.
For wasting your life.
For wasting everyone else's time.
[[For being you.]]YOU HAVE LOST 3 SPOONS DUE TO NEGATIVE THINKING...
HP: 1 SPOONS
Fatigue: 6/10
Pain: 8/10
Time: 8pm
You are so frustrated with yourself.
Why can't you do anything right?
Why can't you just. make. healthy. fucking. choices??
[[Time for fucking bed.]]HP: 1 SPOONS
Fatigue: 6/10
Pain: 8/10
Time: 9pm
You skipped your bedtime routine.
[[You decide to "self-care" by watching 4 hours of BoJack Horseman.]]HP: 3 KNIVES
Fatigue:7/10
Pain: 6/10
Time: 1am
THIS IS ACTUALLY NOT SELF CARE! Your depression is spiking. Your pain is spiking. Your thoughts are [[KNIVES...]]What's the point in living this life if it's 100% suffering?
There's no point to this.
There's no cure for this.
This is what the rest of my life is.
It isn't fair.
I can't do it.
I can't do it.
I just can't do it.
I want to stab myself in the temple with [[KNIVES...]]
THE END.
Start [[The Spoon Theory Game...]] again!HP: 10 SPOONS
Fatigue: 3/10
Pain: 3/10
Time: 12pm
Playing with your dog really helped set the mood for the day. You feel energized, happy and grateful for a low pain day.
[[Go to school (4 SPOONS)]]HP: 10 SPOONS
Fatigue: 3/10
Pain: 3/10
Time: 12pm
You were able to focus and concentrate and completed a few homework assignments. You feel pride in getting ahead in your schedule so you don't feel overwhelmed later.
[[Go to school (4 SPOONS)]]HP: 6 SPOONS
Fatigue: 3/10
Pain: 3/10
Time: 3pm
Class went by smoothly, you were able to concentrate and focus and even retain a lot of the information that was shared.
After class, your best friend invites you to hang out for a couple hours in her studio...
[[Say Yes. (4 SPOONS)]]
[[Say No, go home instead (1 SPOON)]]HP: 2 SPOONS
Fatigue: 5/10
Pain: 6/10
Time: 6pm
You said yes to hanging out with your friend... you were feeling so good after class that you didn't think it would be a problem.
Do you see the problem? You didn't think.
You didn't think. [[You didn't think!]]Then sun was setting while you were hanging out and the intense light brought on a rapid Migraine. You don't have medication to take.
Your best friends studio mate wears a very strong perfume that has been lingering around for hours... you don't have your peppermint oil to mask it.
Your friend has so much energy, and you... do... not.
You feel like a bad friend.
[[Go Home (1 SPOON)]]YOU HAVE LOST 1 SPOON DUE TO NEGATIVE SELF TALK.
WARNING!!!
HP: 00 SPOONS
Fatigue: 8/10
Pain: 4/10
Time: 4pm
You made it home safely.
If you do not rest now, you will have NO SPOONS, ONLY KNIVES.
[[Rest. (+3 SPOONS)]]
[[Push through (?? KNIVES)]]HP: 5 SPOONS
Fatigue: 3/10
Pain: 3/10
Time: 4pm
You feel guilty for saying no to your best friend, even though you know that they understand and would never hold your chronic illnesses against you. Even if you cancelled last minute 100 times.
[[Play with your dog to cheer yourself up! (3 SPOONS)]]HP: 2 SPOONS
Fatigue: 3/10
Pain: 3/10
Time: 5pm
You and your dog both cheered each other up but it really ate up your physical energy... you realize you're in spoonie danger zone...
[[Push through the rest of the day. ((?? SPOONS).]]
[[Try to take a quick nap. ((+2 SPOONS)]]YOU HAVE LOST SPOONS DUE TO POOR CHOICES.
HP: 2 KNIVES
Fatigue: 8/10
Pain: 5/10
Time: 7pm
You are agitated. Every little thing is [[TOO MUCH.]]CONGRATULATIONS! You have GAINED 2 SPOONS for RESTING!
HP: 4 SPOONS
Fatigue: 3/10
Pain: 3/10
Time: 7pm
After a quick nap, you awaken with more energy. You are grateful because now you can [[watch that movie you've been wanting to watch with your partner (1 SPOON).]][[see what happens.]]......HP: 3 SPOONS
Fatigue: 3/10
Pain: 3/10
Time: 9pm
You feel exhausted.
[[Start bedtime routine (3 SPOONS).]]HP: 03 SPOONS
Fatigue: 7/10
Pain: 4/10
Time: 7pm
You decided to take it easy and did very small chores. You also watched a movie with your partner.
[[Start bedtime routine (3 SPOONS).]]HP: 02 KNIVES
Fatigue: 8/10
Pain: 6/10
Time: 7pm
You decided to push through and try to do more chores than you could without damage.
[[Go straight to bed]]WARNING: NO SPOONS, ONLY KNIVES.
HP: 02 KNIVES
Fatigue: 8/10
Pain: 6/10
Time: 7pm
After tossing and turning in bed for a few hours, you realize you are not going to fall asleep.
Your mind is racing.
You can't stop [[criticizing]] yourself...